I've been in my room all day, avoiding my mum since she discovered my ED this morning.

Its good coz i'm hungry but i don't want to her see me eat otherwise i feel like im being a hypocrite.

Only prob is my throat/jaw is killing me, i don't know why? i never get this! do any of you know what it could be from?

Question to all those whose parents know about their EDs: how do you act around them? do they (kind of) accept it? do they treat you like children and make you eat at dinner table and watch an eye on you? etc. i would like to know how you all deal with it, as i am now in the same position and i don't know what to do....

love to all x

Heya, how are you all?? I've been doing alright. I came up with this new idea, i've tied a piece of string around my waist and whenever i eat to much or binge it really hurts, so now i am eating less. It's also a good way to see how much you have lost. Just thought i would share with you as i am so proud of myself for coming up with it. Lol.
          Love , xxx

but I lost another 0.5 lbs today.. And I feel more fat than ever! My clothes have gotten looser, but I keep blaming on other things. I'm finding fat on my body that I didn't notice before. I feel disgusting. Today I have had a sip of Chai, two bites of a mango passion fruit bar, a piece of sf gum, and a diet Dr Pepper.. So let's see.. That's 9.5 calories. That's nothing, but I still feel so gross. Ugh I wish I wasn't so fat (115.5 lbs) This is awful.
Right now I'm debating on whether to drink another diet Dr Pepper (1 cal) or a Propel (20 cal)
What do you think?

 this is the plan.

if you get hungry, eat a low cal food that isn't a carb
wear rollerblades when you're at home (sitting and walking around, doing daily tasks in rollerblades)


and basically that's my plan.

it sucks, I know but yeahh....

its been a bad weekend, but today starts a new week. i went to the gym this morning and burned probably about 500 calories. i came home and ate a boca burger (80cals) and a little bit of fat-free coleslaw (maybe 100 cals). and i only ate that to make my boyfriend happy. then i went down to the beach because a huge whale washed up on shore, it was soo sad, but the good news is, it def. made me not want to eat for the rest of the day! anyhow loves, back to cleaning my room and doing massive amounts of laundry!

ss&tt<3

Well I have to go off to work and my mom begged me to eat some chinese. I did have a little, but thats all for today, and when i get off work I am doing some exersizes 

Today when I am at work alone I am gonna figure all my goals out and write them down then post them here. I just want some kind of...honor system I guess, You know? I don't like to break what I say, but I can lie to myself, if I tell myself that I am going to do this and this i end up convincing myself not to do it, but if I feel accountable to ya'll I will actually complete it.

Do any of you feel this way and maybe we could set something up?

SS & TT
<3

I had to have lunch with my parents today :(

needless to say im full and i really dont like it, im fighting the urge to purge right now. Maybe if I don't eat anything else today I'll be alright?


But i feel like I'm never going to get skinny, I feel like it's never going to happen and no matter how much i don't eat all the stuff I love I'll still be this fatty. We went out to  Mcdonalds last night and my boyfriend made me get a burger which just made my entire day horrible. I was perfectly fine until he made me eat.
I think he's catching on.
Hell i even walked home from work yesterday in 100 degree weather just so i wouldn't feel bad so it was a non exercise day. Sundays are always the worst for me since the gyms not open as much.

Either way Im always going to be huge :( this totally sucks
i'm never going to get past 121 i'll probably just blow up like a balloon. I feel like nothing EVER works for me because i'm such a failure. GAHHH.
I just want to give up.

okay so this is random but.
                           i love tea.

<3

Hey,

just wondering how heavy i look.  The userpic is me, and the pic was taken less than a week ago.  Please be honest, I wanna know how much I look like I weigh.  I'm 5'1" btw.  Thanks! 

 Ok so my friends organised a sleepover the weekend before one of them is going back home to lithuania, sort of a going away party! Anyways...some of them are very health concious so i managed to pursuade them to have a "health foods only rule" ! It's great because I always eat too much when we get together like that and feel awful after! Just wondering if anyone has any low cal snacks i can suggest or bring along?
*love*

Nothing really ED related.
Just wanted to say
that I've had a really great day today
and it's really upped my spirits (:

I have a new obsession with Julian Velard.

Hope you're all doing well.
Stay Strong + Think Thin
♥

Hey Ladies!
Some of you may remember me, some of you may not. I've had some emotional problems, but I've realized that you lovies are the best support system I have.

To all of the ladies who remember me, I've missed you and I am so glad to see you all again. To those I have yet to meet, I am excited to get to know you.

I hope everyone is having the day they planned on having!

no food so far today.  it is only 11:40, though, so we'll have to see.  i'm going to try and stick to liquids today through friday.  so, six day liquid fast.  what ice cream last night almost made me do is ridiculous so i'm just avoiding the situation.


my ex-bf just told me that he still likes me.  but, he's going to be a gentleman because i'm sorta with tracy.  but, still....  meh.  too many ex's liking me.

today's gonna be a good day.  i hope so.

stay strong, think thin
xxxx